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Feb. 5th, 2011 09:35 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
contrariwiseI asked my roommate how to regain respect for someone, and it turned into me telling her about the whole falling out, and what led to it and the repercussions. And she said it sounded similar to suffering from a nasty breakup, and that the main issue wasn't respect, it was how I can overcome being hurt and unhappy, and how to forgive this person.
That wasn't even my question. I just wanted an answer to my question. I didn't want to start crying again over something that happened months ago.
I want to distance myself from them, and I'm trying to in a way but I can't really for any real period of time. But I want things to just be back to normal again, to where I can respect and trust them again and stop wanting to avoid avoid avoid, and the worst thing my roommate said, the absolute worst, was that sometimes you can't get back to normal. Sometimes you can't regain that closeness.
I can't not regain it. I can't handle that. I can't just lose them.
I don't know what to do.
That wasn't even my question. I just wanted an answer to my question. I didn't want to start crying again over something that happened months ago.
I want to distance myself from them, and I'm trying to in a way but I can't really for any real period of time. But I want things to just be back to normal again, to where I can respect and trust them again and stop wanting to avoid avoid avoid, and the worst thing my roommate said, the absolute worst, was that sometimes you can't get back to normal. Sometimes you can't regain that closeness.
I can't not regain it. I can't handle that. I can't just lose them.
I don't know what to do.
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Date: 2017-10-22 10:45 pm (UTC)We couldn't regain it, in the end.
But that's okay. Life goes on. Sometimes you really are better off. Doesn't mean you stop thinking of them entirely, but it really isn't the end of the world and of your heart even if you feel like every little thing's going to set you off.
Wow. It really was a long time coming, wasn't it? And yet I still felt blindsided.