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Nov. 13th, 2010 04:12 pmI still feel like I did the last time I updated, but now I'm also stressed because I'm moving in about a week. There's so much to do, and I don't want to do anything.
I feel like... I'm going to be leaving everything that I know and that I'm comfortable with, and I can't even be sure I'll have roleplaying to fall back on when I'm sad and stressed and lonely. Like I'll have no way to escape everything for a little while and come back energized and refreshed. Just... life, and constantly facing it head-on.
I just need to channel this. Channel it to work through the stress. Maybe.
Except I also feel like I'm using real life as an excuse to avoid roleplaying. So I'm being forced to face life head-on by my inability to face my fantasy world head-on. That sounds so pathetic.
I feel like... I'm going to be leaving everything that I know and that I'm comfortable with, and I can't even be sure I'll have roleplaying to fall back on when I'm sad and stressed and lonely. Like I'll have no way to escape everything for a little while and come back energized and refreshed. Just... life, and constantly facing it head-on.
I just need to channel this. Channel it to work through the stress. Maybe.
Except I also feel like I'm using real life as an excuse to avoid roleplaying. So I'm being forced to face life head-on by my inability to face my fantasy world head-on. That sounds so pathetic.
